We could dress it up in fancy words, employ pretty euphemisms, rail against the universe in Shakespearean inspired iambic pentameter but that wouldn’t change anything.
We’re just really, really sad.
Last Wednesday, 17 June, The Bean Counter’s Mum, the lady we call Nana, died.
Alzheimers is horrific. The Mum who was always there when you needed her (usually just before), who unquestioningly loved those you chose to love (and conversely loathed and oh-so-politely chilled those who hurt you); the Nana who heckled The five year old Farmer as he showed her “just one more trick” on the trampoline, who altered The Goat Herd’s year 8 formal dress to fit her specific instructions (“grown up but not skanky”), and could fold her ex-dancers body into all manner of secret places for Farm Girl’s hide-and-seek marathons – she had slowly but surely disappeared. Visiting her became ashamedly hard, anger jostling with guilt when she glanced blankly (dismissively??) at her great grandchild only to bestow the most radiant, warmth-filled, loving beam on an offered spoonful of ice cream.
We know it’s selfish and contrary to be so miserable when she is finally at peace.
But we are.
We know it will pass – weave its way into the fabric of Homestead highs and lows – but right now…
Oh, we are sad.
17 thoughts on “Sad”
What a wonderful woman, much sympathy in your loss and so sorry she had to end her life in that way. At least she is now at peace.
Thanks, Susan. She certainly kept us in line. We miss her so very much
I feel for you, such a special person.
I am so sorry ❤ The passing of one so dear is so hard on us despite how glorious it is for them. Hugs from afar!
Thank you so much ❤
I am so sorry. What a wonderful woman she was and such a lovely eulogy from you, too. Alzheimer’s is so cruel a disease and gives so much suffering to all concerned. I am glad she is at peace now and in time the Nana you’ll remember most clearly will be the true Nana, before disease took her personality away.
With love ❤
Thank you, Clare. Already it is easier to think of her as she was. It is indeed a cruel disease.
I am sad for you. I hope as Clare says that the memories that will last are the good ones.
Thank you, Mr T
I pray that not just today but everyday, every special occasion ahead that you are all comforted & may the joyful times you had with such a wonderful gem of a Nana get you through. Hugs to you & your fam.
Thank you x
I’m sorry for your loss
My deepest sympathy to you all.
may she rest well now. and your family can find comfort. I’m sorry to hear of your loss.
Thank you. She was a lady of deep and definite faith who deserves all she so unshakably believed was waiting for her.